Some people are really good at personhood. Others find it difficult. I count myself among the second group.

[Peopleing is hard, and Dirk doesn't judge Geir for having trouble with it. He judges himself! But not Geir.]

Most people tend to learn how to exist through experience, and that generally is reliant on socialization. Your case is different, in that it doesn't sound to me as if socialization was ever really much of a thing for you.