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spellbinders2017-08-13 06:12 pm
lalliho) wrote in spellbinders2017-08-13 06:12 pm
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And I lay there wondering, what is the matter?
Who: Lalli Hotakainen and Emil Västerström.
Where: Coven house (?)
When: Backdated to the morning of Day 34.
Open/Closed: Closed.
[When he was young, he'd forced himself to accept the idea of waking up in a different place than he'd gone to sleep. Spirit walking should have made that easier to swallow, but there he knew he'd always be in his haven the next time sleep rolled around. Soul exactly where it was meant to be. His body never really had the same luxury... Even in places he'd been told were home now, he never felt like he wasn't...out of place. But he accepted it.
It was harder now. Every day had been new in the Silent World, when he'd actually been given the opportunity to sleep -- and there had been times his advice on where to go had been completely ignored, it seemed -- but even that was nothing compared to this completely alien universe. He had his connection with his gods back, sure, but...
He felt so disconnected all the same.
When the lynx returns, he welcomes it with a gratefulness and love that almost hurts. They failed -- or Lalli did, as the lynx had no say in the plan despite its participation -- but at least they won't die alone in this unfamiliar land. Not because of Lalli's mistakes. Not yet.
Empty even with his soul back together, he makes himself accept waking up here, different still from where he'd expected, with a shuddered sigh.]
Where: Coven house (?)
When: Backdated to the morning of Day 34.
Open/Closed: Closed.
[When he was young, he'd forced himself to accept the idea of waking up in a different place than he'd gone to sleep. Spirit walking should have made that easier to swallow, but there he knew he'd always be in his haven the next time sleep rolled around. Soul exactly where it was meant to be. His body never really had the same luxury... Even in places he'd been told were home now, he never felt like he wasn't...out of place. But he accepted it.
It was harder now. Every day had been new in the Silent World, when he'd actually been given the opportunity to sleep -- and there had been times his advice on where to go had been completely ignored, it seemed -- but even that was nothing compared to this completely alien universe. He had his connection with his gods back, sure, but...
He felt so disconnected all the same.
When the lynx returns, he welcomes it with a gratefulness and love that almost hurts. They failed -- or Lalli did, as the lynx had no say in the plan despite its participation -- but at least they won't die alone in this unfamiliar land. Not because of Lalli's mistakes. Not yet.
Empty even with his soul back together, he makes himself accept waking up here, different still from where he'd expected, with a shuddered sigh.]
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That now seems impossible with death to deal with. )
Of course. ( Telepathy isn't Emil's typical form of communication, so he makes the effort to switch back. It feels more impersonal to just send messages on some neural network. ) I'll see you soon, Lalli.
( He definitely means it. There's no way he can stay content with just letting Lalli stay alone anymore, whether it's wanted or not. But it makes sense that he needs space in this moment, so he'll give it to him. )