[Right. Emil doesn't have the connecting thread of alone tangling up his insides.

Last time he'd hoped beyond hope, deluded himself, that there were people there for him. A friend waiting. Superiors in rank not acting superior because they valued his hard work. Him. Family.

Gods, he shouldn't have brushed her aside like that in his dream... What a horrible person he is. Because now she's gone when she had been one of the few things that stuck by him in his life. He was alone.]

You weren't. I'm not stupid just because I couldn't understand you, I woke up and you were all talking about that stupid kitten together. None of you cared.