[It's a familiar idea, and yet entirely foreign to her current situation. Being the Merines back home was her fully realized self. Without Nerifes and the Merines' power, Shirley can't achieve that. And yet, today she picked up a physical weapon for the first time and Jade is offering to teach her how to fight. It isn't the same thing as regaining her power, but it's not nothing either.
That is, if she doesn't just stagnate early and remain ineffective despite any efforts. Shirley isn't sure it'll work and the idea of confirming her own uselessness terrifies her, but Jade seems to believe she could do it. Shirley doesn't want to disappoint her.]
I don't know if I can be that. But I think I want to try.
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[It's a familiar idea, and yet entirely foreign to her current situation. Being the Merines back home was her fully realized self. Without Nerifes and the Merines' power, Shirley can't achieve that. And yet, today she picked up a physical weapon for the first time and Jade is offering to teach her how to fight. It isn't the same thing as regaining her power, but it's not nothing either.
That is, if she doesn't just stagnate early and remain ineffective despite any efforts. Shirley isn't sure it'll work and the idea of confirming her own uselessness terrifies her, but Jade seems to believe she could do it. Shirley doesn't want to disappoint her.]
I don't know if I can be that. But I think I want to try.