[Ah. It's the type of question that, really, he thinks only Geir would ever ask quite like that.]

I've put a lot of effort into it to very little success. Unfortunately for everyone, I'm myself and can't seem to be anyone else, not even an idealized model of myself that I've always striven to become. I'm not sure if it's easier for other people or not. I think a lot of people never become who they'd want to be, but I'm not sure everyone feels like they missed the mark so badly as to be a total failure.