[ Why build a unit with emotions when it's prohibited in the first place? It's confusing and makes no sense. Trying to think of an answer eludes her. One thing she can understand is the inconvenience of having emotions. ]
Inconvenient...
[ She parrots the word softly to herself, considering how many times her feelings interfered with her mission and overall her way of thinking.
...And it's true. While she wasn't originally built to have emotions, it's a statement that she can agree with. She's had her own experiences with sadness and anger, painful feelings that frightened her enough to make her chest hurt. If she didn't have emotions, she would never have to feel anything. She wouldn't have had to worry about everyone leaving her. Everything would be much simpler. But then everything would also be much different between herself, Asbel, and the others.
If she could go back to the way she was before though, she wouldn't. Pain is all part of growing stronger, a lesson from Malik that she keeps in mind. As casual 9S may sound about it, it doesn't stop her from having to ask: ]
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Inconvenient...
[ She parrots the word softly to herself, considering how many times her feelings interfered with her mission and overall her way of thinking.
...And it's true. While she wasn't originally built to have emotions, it's a statement that she can agree with. She's had her own experiences with sadness and anger, painful feelings that frightened her enough to make her chest hurt. If she didn't have emotions, she would never have to feel anything. She wouldn't have had to worry about everyone leaving her. Everything would be much simpler. But then everything would also be much different between herself, Asbel, and the others.
If she could go back to the way she was before though, she wouldn't. Pain is all part of growing stronger, a lesson from Malik that she keeps in mind. As casual 9S may sound about it, it doesn't stop her from having to ask: ]
9S? Do you hate being built the way you are?