The warning confuses Emil at first because...he wasn't planning on doing that, but okay. It makes sense when Lalli gets closer to him, head suddenly touching him -- he knows that what it is since he can still see a peek of that upturned nose. The vibration of the shudder makes it through to him, though only slightly. Emil takes it as a small shiver, despite being so blanketed.
It's actually hard, he discovers, to not do what he was instructed explicitly to avoid. Maybe not exactly that, but there's a tiny voice in his head that is humming shrilly because he can't put a hand on Lalli's shoulder or head. Boundaries...they kind of suck sometimes. With a sigh, Emil just lets him slump there, obeying Lalli's command. At least he's staying. As stressed as he felt before, and as muddled as he still feels right now, being like this for a while...it's not so bad. Something about it feels calming and completing.
...Which of course is preposterous, because he needs so much more to be complete. His family, his job, his home. However, this may be as close as he's felt to totally emotionally fulfilled since before he even left Sweden. )
I don't know if I can sleep again tonight.( He's not moving, is what he means. Stay where you are as long as you like. )
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The warning confuses Emil at first because...he wasn't planning on doing that, but okay. It makes sense when Lalli gets closer to him, head suddenly touching him -- he knows that what it is since he can still see a peek of that upturned nose. The vibration of the shudder makes it through to him, though only slightly. Emil takes it as a small shiver, despite being so blanketed.
It's actually hard, he discovers, to not do what he was instructed explicitly to avoid. Maybe not exactly that, but there's a tiny voice in his head that is humming shrilly because he can't put a hand on Lalli's shoulder or head. Boundaries...they kind of suck sometimes. With a sigh, Emil just lets him slump there, obeying Lalli's command. At least he's staying. As stressed as he felt before, and as muddled as he still feels right now, being like this for a while...it's not so bad. Something about it feels calming and completing.
...Which of course is preposterous, because he needs so much more to be complete. His family, his job, his home. However, this may be as close as he's felt to totally emotionally fulfilled since before he even left Sweden. )
I don't know if I can sleep again tonight. ( He's not moving, is what he means. Stay where you are as long as you like. )