[ooh mindspeaking ooh... how nice. Lalli sighs, not unhappily, and let's his eyes drift shut while his arm outside the blanket relaxes to signify the gentle change. It wasn't immediate relief of his problems, but it was...something. Hard to put his finger on, like so many other somethings.]
They are, I think. I didn't think so before.
[It really had been a nice feeling... Getting to be so close to someone, knowing they trusted him and feeling like he could trust for a little while. He wishes he didn't so firmly believe in the walls he'd built around himself. Being someone else -- to him, that's what it was like -- had been indescribable. But he couldn't be someone else for long, nor would he want to. Lalli's accepted the kind of person he is, even if it comes with hardship after hardship crashing down around him and swooping loved ones off to the other side.]
Being around you...hurts? Sometimes? Because I'm still...scared of what could all happen. But you help me by being you. No one else is like you.
[Though that still begged the question of how Emil could comfort him, when he went off the rails like this. Mrrh...]
I wish I knew what to ask for, like that...other me did, but I don't. I don't even understand what I'm feeling. Just...bad. I feel bad.
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They are, I think. I didn't think so before.
[It really had been a nice feeling... Getting to be so close to someone, knowing they trusted him and feeling like he could trust for a little while. He wishes he didn't so firmly believe in the walls he'd built around himself. Being someone else -- to him, that's what it was like -- had been indescribable. But he couldn't be someone else for long, nor would he want to. Lalli's accepted the kind of person he is, even if it comes with hardship after hardship crashing down around him and swooping loved ones off to the other side.]
Being around you...hurts? Sometimes? Because I'm still...scared of what could all happen. But you help me by being you. No one else is like you.
[Though that still begged the question of how Emil could comfort him, when he went off the rails like this. Mrrh...]
I wish I knew what to ask for, like that...other me did, but I don't. I don't even understand what I'm feeling. Just...bad. I feel bad.